Tonight, I’m afraid of being alone. Please don’t leave me until I fall asleep.

lately i’ve been insecure about nearly everthing

i wanted to write a quick post of appreciation. i was having problems with the system for summer school at elac. the system wouldn’t let me add the class i wanted because i had some prereqs they said i have to take. it bothered me for the longest time over the weekend (the office isn’t open on weekends) and stressed me out quite a bit. finally, on monday, i went up there to fill out a request to exempt me from that class. i had my unofficial transcript to show that i’ve taken that course and passed it already. i went home empty handed, just waiting for a notice in the mail the next ten days. but then, i received the notice in the mail today, only two days after submission. while it has been approved, there was a mistake.

thinking i had to make time and return back to the school really annoyed me, considering i went all the way out of my way to do so the first time already. it isn’t even my fault the system is faulty, considering i could add the class i wanted without a problem in the first place. i thought it is such a waste of time running these mindless errands. eventually, i decided to make the smart decision to call them. perhaps they could help me. so i explained my situation. although the first person tried to help, he wasn’t very successful in doing so. he transferred me to a lady, who i explained the same story to. by now, i’ve begun to get restless.. it’s the same cycle of repeating a story until they tell me they can’t help me. but this lady — she understood my problem right away, and within five minutes had it fixed.

i thanked her and told her i appreciate her efforts in assisting me. after she cleared me of those prereqs, i finally added the class i’ve been holding. what made me most anxious is not the tedious steps to getting my classes, but the rare class opportunities that the school provides. hundreds of students fight for the same classes every day, but i was lucky to have a few to choose from. what made me anxious was the thought of those opportunities slipping away.

why does leonardo dicaprio always end up dead in the water with no girlfriend

• cleaned my room
• dusted corners i swear i didn’t even know existed
• cleaned desk and threw away old shit
• caught up with bestiful
• ran errands i vowed to do a few months ago
• ordered early birthday gifts online (i usually procrastinate till the week of the birthday and freak out what to get people)
• put aside money for ethan’s shoes !
• added some money into my very neglected swear bank
• stayed in bed for hours

• just two more finals away from being free 
• i woke up in the morning and ended up talking to connie on the phone for an hour or two
• i think i called her because i was too old/ lazy to text so early in the morning
• ended up lying in bed for a few more hours
• bought food from bun bun and heard the saddest story ever
• changed my life, i swear
• delivered food to babe at work because omg he’s like a baby that needs to be fed -_-
• decided to be productive and that resulted in cafe maji with a bestiful date with tracy
• peach tea and mango tea + additional strawberry waffle !
• au79 to “observe” someone
• why did we even go to the mall
• home and finally doing the studying i vowed to do last week

i feel like people who eat breakfast really have their lives together