November 2010
i love when someone actually makes an effort to talk to me.
day 12: how you found out about tumblr and why you made one
i found out about tumblr about one and a half year ago. it was during the summer, and i stumbled upon my old friend’s tumblr: thebestdogtor. i was using blogspot to blog at that time, but i created one to follow her posts and stuff :) it was very interesting, and i remember my first post was the song vanilla twilight by owl city. that was before it was super popular and i just absolutely loved that song. i continued to use blogspot at that time, but sign on occassionally on tumblr. then the following christmas, those5letters and i decided to use tumblr to blog instead because it’s much easier to upload pictures, audio, and blog. it was the best. i guess i made a tumblr to blog and vent about my life. it makes me feel a lot better afterwards. i continue to do so to this day :)
keep this in mind, one day, there's going to be a guy who's going to love you, your body, your smile, the way you walk, the way you talk, he's going to love you. and you're going to feel confident and on top of the world. one day, you won't feel insecure because you have someone who loves you for who you are. and i think that's when you know it's love. when instead of feeling like you have to hide your flaws, and feel insecure and embarrassed, you feel unashamed, free, secure, safe, proud, happy, confident. you feel loved.
144). i am good at remembering birthday's.
waking up to your text automatically makes my day a good one. reading your text throughout the day makes me smile. getting your "make a wish" text at exactly 11:11 makes me feel warm to my toes. and staying up just to wait for your good night text is worth it because the feeling it leaves me creates sweet dreams.
Innocent
Taylor Swift
i guess you really did it this time
left yourself in your warpath
lost your balance on a tightrope
lost your mind tryin’ to get it back
wasn’t it easier in your lunchbox days?
always a bigger bed to crawl into
wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything?
and everybody believed in you?
with every inch of her heart, she cares for you. with every cell in her brain, she thinks of you. with every smile on her face, she's reminded of you. it's quite simple to see, she's in love with you.
October 2010
is it better to go with what your heart wants even if you know you'll regret it later? or is it better to lie to yourself and follow what your mind tells you to do? we all experience this kind of feeling where we feel like we're splitting into two, we just don't know which road to take. cause in the end the outcome will always be the same, either we regret following our heart or we regret listening to our mind. life just seems like a lose-lose situation sometimes.
when you truly love someone, their mistakes never changes your feelings. mainly because it's the mind that gets angry, but the heart still loves them.
saturday !
i spent majority of today working on english proj with my group.
it took forever, and we have the hardest topic. we were able to finish but i felt like we only did an adequate job. if we had more time, i think we could have done better. it’s just that everyone’s busy, and we don’t have a lot of time to work on it together. so this is my day. i woke up at around 8, but felt so tired and easily fell asleep. i snoozed till 1130 !! :) it was the first time in a very long time that i woke up this late. and it felt so, so good. i have a weird thing where i tend to wake up extremely early. but i guess the whole week of school, problems, stress, etc. really got to me. i felt so good when i woke up. all my problems were gone, and it felt absolutely wonderful. i took a shower, ate lunch, and found out my internet is dead. but there’s wifi around my area so i still had my laptop :) so i called up at&t and then went to ryan’s house to work on our proj. he has so much pets !! there were three dogs, two turtles, and two cats !! : D they were really nice but the dogs were pretty hyper. and all of them scared me at one point. maybe i’m just very easily scared. by the time we left, i was exhausted. it was like 5, and i went home and showered, ate, and took an hour to read one page of the SAT book. ugh, it’s so boring. then i watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets on dvd :) i’m having a harry potter marathon this week !! i’m missing the fifth dvd though .. i don’t know where it is :( sad face. i hope i find it soon. then i stumbled through my blogspot, and as i looked through it, i found a post on my birthday. it was made the midnight of my birthday, and as i looked at it, i got really sad. i realize the reason i was sad is because those were the birthday wishes my friends had sent me. and many of those friends i have talked to last year .. i don’t often talk to now. i’ve realize we all have changed immensely during that one year. and then i wonder what it will be like this year.
so i did take some pictures today, but tired and lazy as i am, i decided not to upload them on here.
