but we have school tomorrow :(
my laptop is acting weird. like it freezes once in a while and then i have to force shut down because nothing else works. but i am hoping it’s a temporarily glitch and it wouldn’t become a problem. apparently i am having technical problems this week. first my computer wouldn’t turn on, and now this. it kinda scares me. i woke up this morning all lazy, tired, and sad. i moped around the house the whole morning and was going to finish a note i started for my friend but i still haven’t. my parents and sister went out to go somewhere. i think they went to sam’s club :) and came back with inn-n-out for lunch. then i had to call someone to resolve a problem for my sister but i guess i got annoyed because i hate making these calls and got yelled at.
today’s weather is nice. it wasn’t too hot or too cold. it rained out of no where yesterday. i wasn’t able to go to the mall this weekend because lots of things came up. but after the scary emergency we had last week, everything is all good now :) i was told on friday that i have a fbla test thing the upcoming friday and i haven’t studied anything. thinking about the competitions and everything sounds fun but honestly, i don’t even know what to study for. and so i just pretended i have been studying, which i haven’t. it’s very sad. went to practice today :) and it was pretty fun if not tiring. like the coaches are nice and i like today’s games but the whole partner thing is so complicated. you’re not given a choice and it makes me wonder what’s going to happen later. i rewatched mean girls after dinner and no matter what it will always be better than the second one :) i never watched the second one ?
tomorrow’s school, and i’m deciding whether or not to bring my precal book. i haven’t wrapped it and it is actually very heavy. i hate how sometimes you tell one person you like something but they don’t like it and think it’s weird. but the next thing you know they are head over heels obsessed with it. i mean, okay, why the change of heart. did you finally get hooked to it or is it because everyone else likes it too? i don’t know, i feel pretty crappy right now with a minor headache so i just going to pour myself a glass of orange juice.
you have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had. learn from your mistakes and never regret cause people change, things go wrong, but just remember -- life goes on.
when i feel that i'm not important to a person, i take the initiative to move away. not because i don't care anymore, but because i've realized that if he's not happy with me, there's no reason for me to stay and hold on.
my computer wouldn’t turn on. but i have my laptop but i’m still very sad. because i have everything on my computer and i want it now now now. it’s been like that since morning. at least i have all my music stored in a flashdrive but i am still very unhappy because everything else is on there and it wouldn’t turn on. and so i’m cranky the whole day. and sleepy too. so after this i think i will take a nap. so when i press the power button on the cpu, instead of the little light turning green it slowly flashes in orange. and i’m like what the heck and yeah. and it stays like that. at first i was optimistic about it but then all that fades away as hours pass. i also read a book today. i haven’t willingly read a book in forever and i forgot how much i enjoy reading sometimes :) sometimes. pamela, i finally read the books you let me borrow. i’m on the second one but i stopped cause i got tired of just sitting there. i also wrote and decorated a colorful note for my friend. cause he’s been nagging me since forever ago to write him one and i did promise. and then i spent about half an hour looking for my gluegun and fixing the binding of my math notebook. it was destroyed previously by someone i should not name.
i also receieved a package today in the mail :) that made my day. but it wasn’t enough to keep me going but it’s okay. i feel tired and my cramps are tearing me to pieces but on the other hand i get to wrap something for my sister now :) oh, and i forgot to mention i’m constantly refreshing powerschool because i am dying to see my trig grade. thank you teachers, for taking your sweet, sweet time and telling me to enjoy my weekend.
impossible, maybe, but worth one last try i’m waiting on your reply i’m sitting here patiently just for the chance that i might be able to hold you tight and i want to know what makes your world go round and i want to hear your voice for the sound a love that defines all i’ve had in mind now i’m holding back nothing for the look in your eyes
i'm actually a really shy person. like when you first meet me, our conversation is going to be awkward no matter what because i wouldn't have any idea what to talk about. it’s also worse when you’re cute. but if you wait a little i’ll get comfortable talking with you. then i’ll start talking so much that it’ll annoy you. i really do talk a lot.
love isn't about attraction, not about infatuation, not about lust, not about gifts and the length of time you spent together. bottom line? there's no reason at all, true love is having to wake up each day feeling so deeply in love and overwhelmingly happy whenever this person is around you without knowing why. making you forget the past, cherish the present and wishing the future would be spending your entire lives together.
party party party. tea party. yesterday i had no homework. but the idiot i am stayed up watching tv till midnight and finally went to sleep when i got yelled at. i wasn’t even tired; but i fell asleep pretty quickly. actually, i remembered something about someone and i specifically signed on to tell them something. i’m not getting attached. i hope. you’re probably reading this like “huh?” but i really can’t say more. the alarm woke me up. but i turned it off and kept on sleeping for 45 more minutes. HAHA so i woke up in a panic when it went off again and rushed to change. i didn’t even get a chance to pick out a friday outfit. just kidding; skipped breakfast, ran outside and my uncle drove me to school. in first period, we got our speeches, notebooks, finals back. is it sad that i failed the final and it was basically to watch a documentary? :X i had a 98 in the class though and i think that’s okay. but i admit, i feel worried. especially when i had 50 points of extra credit at the palms of my hand and i gave it away. to this guy i know, but barely know. each semester, we are given four hall passes, and by the end of the semester she collects if and gives you points if you didn’t use them. i did a good deed. i honestly believed that he left it at home. and me? i didn’t really needed it that badly, and he was at borderline for A or B. i can’t say i regret it, because i don’t.
in second period, we got our business tests back and my group only got three wrong :) two of them were careless mistakes and one, i don’t know about the other one. but i’m satisfied. what i am not satisfied about is our powerpoint and our teacher’s expectations. it seems like she is targeting my group. good thing it is second semester, or i’d surely not get a good grade this semester. in third, i walked around and finding teachers to initial something. fourth, corbin let us play with his cards :) yay for winning streaks on big 2 ! fifth is saddening. i was pretty confident after taking the final but when i got it back my heart sank. i got a low score, and i hope i remain at a C. actually, i’m 98% sure i will, but it’s that 2% that makes me afraid. during sixth period, i decided to go return my trig book and exchange it for precal, so ryan and i went to lockers. then the book room lady, who is not very nice at all, sent us back and told us to come after school. so annoying, it’s not like you were doing anything anyway. so three minutes before the bell rang, we went to the book room again. didn’t want to go after school because people flood in so fast and the line is so long. and waiting for tuesday is hopeless. we got our books :)
after school, we had lots of places to go, but we decided to go to cha for tea in alhambra. i craved for their crispy chicken since forever ago, and today, i was finally able to satisfy that craving. we walked from the library to cha and ordered, talked, and then slowly talked and ate. it was so good. i like their boba milk tea and mmm the food was delicious. i ran into this guy from alhambra :) at first i couldn’t believe i ran into him because of all people, it’s such a coincidence. then we walked around like everywhere. but wearing the wrong shoes today, it really hurts my feet. we went grocery “shopping” at super a and it was so fun. i don’t think tracy believed me at first but hey, i know when i know ;) just kidding. the spongebob key chain in my earlier post, i saw it, and just had to get it for my friend who loves spongebob. shh, don’t tell her, okay guys? :) going to surprise her on tuesday. as we were walking, these five guys almost ran us over with their car. i stopped abruptly because it was an automatic reflex and they motioned us to pass. then they started yelling hey, hello, hi, and other stuff at us. this is like the bajillionth time it happened. so awkward, and always running into these strange peoples. later we walked by the movie theater and another random guy walked up to us and asked if we blazed. HAHAH. no. i don’t. sorry to disappoint. like tracy said, i had my backpack on like a good girl. i don’t know if she blazed but i don’t. just kidding :) she’s going to hurt me. eh, we ended up at lovebirds cafe and i was going to get a white chocolate macadamia cookie but i realize i was too full from cha to eat so i watched as tracy devoured her cookie. in two bites. just kidding. she’s really going to hurt me now ^___^
when we finally got home, i was exhausted. we had real talks today. i’m sorry, but there’s someone i totally lost respect for. your little things used to irritate me little by little, but i let it go. to be honest, you expect too much from me. don’t bitch at me and tell me what to do, especially when you don’t do it yourself. you know why i tolerate you? because we’re all friends here. but everyone knows as well as you do, that i will speak up. life doesn’t always go your way. everybody makes mistakes, but they all accept the consequences. why are you so different that you think you can just walk away? if you’re willing to take that risk, be ready to face the consequences once you get caught. don’t place the blame on someone else. you? a hypocrite. i’m sorry, i will never look at you the same way again. i forgive you, but you’ll have to earn that respect.