in a couple of years, when i decide to go on my tumblr and read my posts, i’ll find all these posts i type as of today. i think that’s pretty neat :) i was super tired yesterday from the moment i woke up .. went to school and pep rally schedule. only it didn’t feel like it because everything seemed so normal. after third period, tiffany and i met up with emmelynn and we walked to the field. it was a very long walk and finally we get to sit in the seniors’ section :) woo. the pep rally was much shorter than i expected and we were baking in the heat. hehe, we also got crowns and pom poms ! we had like twenty one-ish people and it was hard to get everyone in the picture because someone will always be covering another someone. it was actually pretty hectic :X hehe melanie offered to take the picture for us :) somehow, after the whole hour though .. my dslr camera’s screen ended up really scratched. i was really sad because it’s really noticeable. it still works and everything but .. it’s there ugly and everything. i think it was because of the fence :(
the classes went on as usual, despite everyone not being in the mood for work. we corrected our psych tests and i’m surprised i did good :) i studied and all, but i didn’t feel like i really tried my best. after school, i waited on rural for tracy to pick me and her seesta up :) i haven’t seen her in months and months because we’ve both been busy .. and it’s really good to see her and her bajillion pairs of shoes in her car. i also secretly think she has road rage :X just kidding. she drives safely with a hilarious huge gap between the cars :D we went to yogurtland and yogurt never tasted so good :) oh, and also passed these two guys that were cussing in chinese .. while eating our yummy yogurt, we caught up about some things and later went to alhambra and hung around the area. i was dropped off around 4:45 !
i took forever to go to tiff’s house because all the traffic lights turned red as our car approached the intersection. i’m not even joking. we both got dropped off at constance’s house and we got ready there. well i just kinda sat there till tiff experimented on curling my hair :) she used hairspray and it tickled :X i admit, i was really sleepy .. staying up to study sometimes doesn’t pay off. does that have anything to do with my eyes being so small :X haha. we went to keppel afterwards and it got really cold. hehe, it was a good night with everything; thanks lots kevin :)
but let’s go about this through an optimistic perspective and cut out the bad shit. first of all, today is food festival schedule and it was exhausting. starved like the whole day. i hate working. thank goodness we got a shady area because in the sun, i honestly don’t think i will survive. it wasn’t scorching hot but i wouldn’t like standing in the sun for over an our either. i had stayed up studying the night before and woke up not feeling awake at all. it’s like the walking dead. packed the glue gun and shirt with my other things and headed to school. it was cold in the morning. i went to school and arrived just to hear someone talk about how amazing they are .. sounds like the usual. it really makes me wonder where are all the decent people?
the periods passed by; the first few classes were unbearable. just stared at the clock and watched it tick slowly till the bell rings. other classes are better, with friends that share your pain. after third, we went to set up for food festival and even though it was a slow process, we sold everything at the end of lunch. but i was so tired from the whole week. busy every day and taking so much things that don’t make me feel like myself. we chilled outside and talked because no one wanted to go to fifth and i ended my day with a psych test. hc helpers at school but i had to leave .. got home around four and went to the doctor’s and got pretty purple pills that doesn’t taste so pretty. i’m tired. i’m tired of everything. it’s like i can act fine but a lot of things bother me beneath the surface. is it stress?
so damn bossy. who are you to lay down the rules? you’re not the only one in this, you’re not the only one who made them, you’re not the one whose excluded — so why do you care? sure, i don’t have a say in this either because i didn’t exactly do everything either, but at least i’m not being so selfish. you got what you want, and it seems that it’s all you care about. i’m thankful for those who spent time to put everything together, but i absolutely HATE how you’re being a bitch about it all. you’re a decent person who i have no intention to dislike but .. the way you approach thing is a i-don’t-really-give-a-fuck-because-i-already-got-what-i-want attitude. it probably takes about thirty minutes, no less than an hour. materials are already there, and i am volunteering to run to the nearest shop to pick something up for the sake of one friend. come to think about it, not only you but everyone could act the way you are but they aren’t .. because it’s not fair. it’s the last year and everyone deserves to participate. i felt bad to the point where i’m willing to sacrifice my place because i know for a fact that it is that friend who deserves it more than me. you don’t know the feeling of being left out because you’re always the one who makes the choices. she’s the nicest, sweetest, person i know .. and i’ve known her for a damn long time. i didn’t feel this dislike towards you till you texted me and threw me a bunch of excuses of why we shouldn’t do it. how about all the reasons we should?
i don’t like feeling this bitter towards you, but the way you are acting isn’t right.
you meet someone. you two get close. it's all great for awhile. then someone stops trying. talk less. awkward conversations. the drifting. no communication whatsoever. memories start to fade. then, that person you know becomes that person you knew. that's how it usually goes, right? sad isn't it.
i don’t care what other people say, i like it. i like warm sunny weather too but cold weather is a really nice change. time to take out my winter pajamas :) hehe. hot chocolate tastes best on rainy days .. and it was raining this morning. i was very sad because today is homecoming pep rally too. so it ended up getting cancelled so i basically looked forward to nothing. it’s postponed to friday but when i found out in first period, i was not happy. bad things happen today .. but tomorrow is always a new day !
tired and sleepy all morning. went to school and first period is boring. i hate how i feel annoyed sometimes. i mean, it’s not her fault but when someone keeps asking you something again and again, you get irritated. really, it only takes common sense. but i sincerely try to help because i feel awful after. and when i help her, then i end up missing the directions on what we’re suppose to do and etica. it’s like a chain of events. in second period, we worked on quickbooks. only with source documents and it’s super confusing -_- in third period, i spent the entire period whispering with tiffany till she fell asleep and i got bored so i took a picture of her sleeping and she deleted it afterwards on my phone haha :) we also shared stories and she has funny stories :D in fourth period .. boring boring boring. it stopped raining later in the morning and it wasn’t that wet by lunch so sitting by the lunch table with my friends is cool :) i loves michelle .. she’s so funny and cute. and i hope we really get the “situation” fixed by friday because it’s so sad and i want her included. especially when it’s the last year. i’m willing to give up my shirt for it and so would emmelynn. fifth period correct tests. and the most awkwardest thing happened. thank you so much kris fung :(
sixth period is okay. time ticked slowly. and after school, i helped regina and her senior committee sell thai tea. but unfortunately, it didn’t go so well. i hope it doesn’t happen on thursday. regina, please make sure it doesn’t happen :) and then i went home to drop things off and later went for my appointment. unlike other appointments .. this one sucks because i left feeling flustered. and even more nervous when i ran into the same person .. again. it’s too scary to think about. and my dad and i grabbed dinner at inn-n-out because i was hungry but i haven’t had an appetite and just had fries :( it’s not good because i’ve lost so much weight the last two months. need to start on homework now !