i’m tired of waking up early every morning for a purposeless day at school. i’m tired of forcing myself to do something my heart and mind doesn’t want. i’m tired of putting time and effort into homework when it no longer counts for anything. i’m tired of studying for a test i’m going to end up bombing and i’m tired of trying so hard to keep my grades up. perhaps i am feeling this intense hatred for school because of senioritis, but i believe i did my fair share of learning, and it certainly feels that it’s time to move on. to move on to summer sunshine, ice cream, beach days, tan lines, and even stupid sunburns.
i want to skip school for a couple weeks. i want to shut my phone off and not log onto the computer. i want to see if anyone will write on my facebook or text me. i want to see if anyone would care where i was. i want to see if anyone notices that i'm gone.
oh no of course not! it was your personal post. i just saw myself in it. and it made me think that you wouldn't like me, which makes me sad because you seem well-liked
ahh i know what you mean.. sometimes i see myself in other posts i read. it makes me feel sad as well. haha, don’t say that !! you never know. there are people i never thought i’d get along with. but after getting to know them, i wonder where they have been all my life. you’re like that to someone : )
this might be irrelevant ..but i leave pretty bad first impressions. for example, there’s this girl (mindful-of) i met freshman year in mandarin. one day early in the school year, i came to class and my desk was missing (it was broken) and so .. i stole this girl’s desk. she still talks to me today LOL ;)
just... one of your rant posts sounds like me. i know it's not, it couldn't be lol! it makes me want to better myself.
really? i’m sorry, i didn’t mean it to be offensive. why do you think it sounds like you? we all have our good qualities too but blinded by anger, i only mention the bad in rants. haha, we all should better ourselves !! : )
ME (ABOUT TALKING ON THE PHONE): i hung up in a haste because i thought i saw a spider but it wasn’t. TIFFANY L: dude don’t get bitten or you’ll turn into spiderman. TIFFANY L: and then you’ll have to battle joker. TIFFANY L: oh fuck that’s batman. ME: LOLOL
this is one of those “rant” posts. when you spend time with someone, you’re suppose to find more things you like about them. they can be small things like how they smile before telling you a funny joke or interesting things like how they always wear a good luck ring that is significant to them. but the more i spend time with you, the more i find your personality .. rather repulsive. i don’t think i am exactly hard to get along with, but i’m certainly not the easiest. however, you bring difficult friendships to a whole new level. i never once thought we’d have a future after high school. i knew that i just had to bare along with your long, grueling, and repetitive stories till i graduate and get out of here. i’ll be like a little bird that has just spread my stupid little wings and learn how to fly. the thing is, i am currently angry at you. i’ve put some distance between you and i because i have no intention to argue with you. i don’t think i’d be wrong, but it just makes life a whole lot simpler when some negative things are left unsaid. still, i’m only human and there is only so much i can handle.
i finally cracked this week from your bullshit. usually, i force myself to put up with how clingy you are. people say the clingiest people are the people that care the most. however, i don’t 100% agree with this. yes, many cases that is true but in other cases, people just cling to you because they have no one else. they can’t live with a little independence and cannot stand the idea of standing alone in this scary world. even when it’s just simply walking down the fucking halls in high school. really, now. you’re that type of person. i’m not trying to make this person look bad; i’m just stating the mere fact that it’s true. and that i am really sick and tired of it. from our little school trip to the amusement park a month or two ago, you won’t leave my side. everywhere i turned, i couldn’t find enough space. it was suffocating not because there was so much people, but because you allowed no space between you and i. mind you, it was one damn hot day too. you squeeze yourself to every conversation i had, even ones with the teachers. you’re just there. walking side by side by me where i had no room to move my arm because you’re not even 1.5 inches away from me. i wish that i am kidding, but i am not.
when the day hasn’t even started but it sure as hell sucked already. there is a bunch of things you have to do, but none that you find any interest in doing. a bunch of responsibilities you wish you can just toss out the window. but those responsibilities are like a boomerang that’s coming back full speed at you. nothing gets better and you just can’t wait to crawl back into bed.