♈ Aries: Aries are generally very innocent creatures. There are two sides to their inner world: a world full of hate and a world full of love.They can understand other’s problems quite easily.
♉ Taurus: Taureans do not forget past injustices, and they also remember their past pain as well— and will remind you of it. The tragedy with a Taurus is that their pain is just as fresh today as it was the first time.
♊ Gemini: One Gemini girl equals several women. Though they suffer alone, Geminis will always try to look optimistic and happy in front of others. There is intelligence underneath the scatteredness.
♋ Cancer: Life doesn’t stand still for this sign, even if they remain in one place. Their link with the Moon often makes it impossible for them to operate on an even keel from day to day - emotions are unsteady, unstable;
♌ Leo: It is easy to crush them with coolness. It takes much courage and energy to radiate so much, and they need lots of love and smiles from others to keep it going.
♍ Virgo: In times of distress Virgos tend to become very unnatural, so they confine themselves in their own world and ignore the people around them. Virgos are well-aware of the coldness they’re portraying to others during these moments, yet they are unable to change or control their mood so they choose to hide in their bubble.
♎ Libra: libras are always trying to control their emotions and are very capable of keeping feelings in check.they often feel alienated from their own heart because they have distanced themselves from their inner world
♏ Scorpio: scorpio have their natural defences up. they see the world is a dark place and are simply protecting themselves. they have trouble managing their intense emotions.
♐ Sagittarius: they will portray a very independent and happy image, seemingly unaffected by their unfortunate situations. seeing their optimism, others may think that they are indifferent, as Sagittarius will never show how much they are suffering.
♑ Capricorn: capricorns rarely feel that they are accurately portrayed by their star sign definition. while it is true they put themselves to work, have a determination to succeed, and possess much strength inside a caring heart - it is hard for any of the other sides to grasp the complexities going on in their minds; they can’t explain it. and even if they could - we wouldn’t understand it.
♒ Aquarius: aquarius feel very helpless when they realize that they’ve grown emotional towards a person. it’s the only thing that makes them lose their rationality and they become lost in the feeling.
♓ Pisces: being kind is their preferred way of life since it is adaptive, effortless and gains them respect easily from others. they understand this very well, so they use compassion to deal with most situation.
where dark woods hide secrets and mountains are fierce and bold deep waters hold reflections of times lost long ago i will hear their every story, take hold of my own dream be as strong as the seas are stormy, and proud as an eagle’s scream i will ride, i will fly, chase the wind and touch the sky i will fly, chase the wind and touch the sky
i have those good days where i go out with friends and have a great time — catching up, munching on delicious appetizers or sipping on cold drinks, laughing over silly stories, asking those random questions that somehow crept onto my mind, and just chilling there enjoying each other’s company. but then i have those antisocial days where i just want to be left alone, where i ignore texts, avoid going on any social networking sites, and not feel like doing anything at all. i don’t like how everything is inconsistent and each day my feelings remain unpredictable and bipolar.
and this dormant love you’ve built inside your stubborn ways, well its begging now, for air of the silent breath of change as these waves crash against the highway cliffs i’m so scared they’ll flood me where i sit well the roads, they change to waterways they never carry home you pull back and you angle towards the window now the rain is crashing down and oh my god, you’re beautiful
because i would hate to let you think that we’re complete pushovers that will allow you to do whatever benefits you. i would hate for you to believe that just because we let it slide once, means that it’s fine for you to make the same mistakes again the future. lastly, i would hate for you to fall under false impressions and think that it’s no big deal after being so rude and throw away proper etiquette.
when it comes down to it, i never thought myself to be a very patient person. i don’t mind waiting, if there’s something to wait for. but you gotta admit, making a whole group of five wait for you over an hour is quite extreme. this isn’t no casual hangout, but someone’s special day. a special occasion, with your close buds and yet you’ve been out of reach for hours. the thing that upsets me the most is that this isn’t the first time. we’ve sat there and waited like naive children for you, and for what? for you to show up late without much of an apology. not only that, they’ve called you numerous times, but all their calls were left unanswered. “hey, i’m going to be late” or “sorry, i don’t think i will be able to make it on time” are words that aren’t that hard to string together. perhaps, even if you don’t mean it .. these words are enough to pay us back. to keep our anger shimmered down, because in the end, our wait was for nothing. you devoured the bread, ate the cake without contributing anything, and escaped out the door right when the bill is handed to us. not a word of thanks, but a feeble excuse that your parents are here to pick you up when you phoned them so desperately to come. you gave nothing, and took so much in return.
not just today, but my last few birthdays as well. come to think of it, the last two years was played out the exact same way. you come late, ate for free, and left. i suppose i was blinded years before, but now i see so clearly how it’s always been from the start. it’s not just the cash that’s the problem. i personally believe that it’s not that big of a deal, but when you think about it .. some people actually work their ass off to make money for their own expenses. so i also find it such a shame that it seems like we’re paying your part for no particular reason. i don’t mind treating my lovely friends out, but what kind of a friend have you been to me? when we were suppose to go shopping, you went mia for hours and bailed on us last minute. when we were going to watch the avengers, you were out of contact for hours and sent us a text telling us you couldn’t make it after the movie started. when we went to a theme park, you were last to show up and we waited for you for a good twenty minutes. when we studied our ass off for competition, you arrived late and didn’t work as hard. when we text you, you reply weeks later. only when you need something, you come to us. only when you need something, we’re your friends. effort matters quite a lot to me, and from what i’ve seen the last few years, you don’t seem to give a shit.
and so, why the hell should i? your actions have not only disappointed me today, but in the past as well. i’m sick and tired of being one of those people you come running to when you need something. consider today a gift, because i don’t need someone like you in my life.
so i shall do a little blogging. it’s been almost two weeks, anyway. right now, i am pretty tired but i am going to stay strong and not fall asleep so i can have a wonderful sleep tonight. then i will be prepared to tackle tomorrow. it’s going to be a fun day in the sun i hope :) then go home, change, and go to jenny’s birthday dinner ! that girl finally turning 18 !! :0 i haven’t seen a bunch of them in forever. i feel like for certain people, i’ve lost contact and drifted from them over the summer. it’s going to be harder getting in touch in the future since we’re all separating for college too. then again, it’s not my fault that you only reply to me when you need something. there’s just too many of you that are like that. i certainly don’t appreciate it, and i guess it’s just a bigger pet peeve for me than for others. after all, i’m not that important in your life anyway, so why bother? i’m willing to break “friendships” such as these. better than you walking out on me when i really need you in the future anyway. right now i am listening to korean songs on someone’s blog because it’s so catchy, hehe. anyways, i truly am a weakling :( i can’t eat super spicy foods, i need sleep, and i’m already tired by noon.
i think i am getting paid tomorrow, which makes me so happy. it makes everything i go to bearable cause i know all isn’t for naught. sometimes i feel like i hate my job. but ironically, when some parents ask me, i always reply with positive answers. the strange thing is, i don’t think i was lying either. however, i can’t deny that there are days when these kids drive me insane. grace, who butts into everyone’s business and when it’s her turn, she refuses to cooperate. jacob, who is too willing to help even when his assistance causes a bigger mess. little kyle, who always ask about his grandma and when he gets to leave. beverly, who tattletales on everything — even the smallest things such as an accidental nudge. justin, who used to cry, kick, and pinch, now fights over the toys he’s once tossed aside. ashlynn, who hops and clings on to me and her boy crush ethan. and calvin, who is the biggest troublemaker ever. good thing he’s on vacation though :X everything puts my patience and tolerance to test. but even with the little annoyances, every morning is a new day and i am always happy to see them walk through the door.
i need to go to yogurtland and get froyo and collect their sanrio spoons :) two more are being released in august !! :0 they don’t have my favorite flavor the last time i went through :( i can’t wait to go hiking with my family. i would like to see how far my parents can endure before they start complaining. HAHA. both of them claim they can do it though. it’s been a pretty good summer so far, spending lots of $$ and hanging with the friends-ies :) had spent some good days with the fambam shopping, and others with friends. the other day, went to bc with pamela, carmen, and chea. michelle couldn’t make it because she was having fun in sd :( had fun bowling with ze old crew too. it was super funny because we got some new bowlers :) fat days, out eating and just dropping by others’ houses :X lots of plans got cancelled due to conflicting schedule and so i spent some days at home getting fat and watching dramas, hehe. & i’m going to write jenny’s birthday card now !