i feel like people who eat breakfast really have their lives together

• got my paycheck yesterday and i already spent all within my budget today
• the remaining goes to getting ethan (my car) new shoes (wheels)
• so high maintenance and demanding, but he’s been working hard
• he deserves (two) new pair
• today i was still feeling down in the dumps
• i ended up hardly working on anything
• tried to get my elac thing fixed, but it’s going to take about ten days to see if it’s approved
• ended up going to the mall by myself which is the loneliest thing ever
• wallet is empty but new clothes
• what has my life become

But even so, every now and then I would feel a violent stab of loneliness. The very water I drink, the very air I breathe, would feel like long, sharp needles. The pages of a book in my hands would take on the threatening metallic gleam of razor blades. I could hear the roots of loneliness creeping through me when the world was hushed at four o’clock in the morning.”

— Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle (via larmoyante)

☾: post photo of yourself
æ : tell 5 things about your best friend
✌: share 5 things that you really want
☮ : share 5 favourite movies
❂ : share 5 favourite foods
☯ : share 5 person you love being with
☪ : share 5 favourite celebrities
❀ : share favourite thing you do when you get bored
♡ : share 5 favourite songs
❁: share 5 favourite blogs
✓: tell 5 facts about yourself
♧ : share 5 facts about your appearance
☆: share your current mood
♒ : share about your crush
☀ : something that made me smile today
✖ : something you hate
☼ : something you love
ϟ : ask anything

She waited for the train to pass. Then she said, “I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.”

— Haruki Murakami (via langleav)

thankfully, yesterday i didn’t have to. my eyes suck and they are swollen but i feel much better as opposed to bottling everything up the night. or holding back tears as i strolled back and forth at work. i’m glad too, because i would have had to awkwardly excused myself to the restroom. three more days till my last two finals and one paper due and i can relax a little before summer school starts.

how did i end up with $0.46 in my bank account.