it’s absolutely ridiculous. how can i not, when i applied to so many?
yet those feelings of doubt have always been here. thousands of people out there, competing for the same darn spot i so much desired. how can i compete with all those straight A’s and 4.0’s? faced with people with more knowledge in their brains than i had accumulate my four years, it made me feel like nothing. no matter what i did or how hard i tried, it felt like it wasn’t enough. not enough to satisfy what all these colleges want. not enough to put me on the same scale as everyone else. what i want has never been within my reach. so while everyone else received their acceptance letters, i became more and more afraid.

so how relieved was i when i got accepted to my first out of state college? very.