• i feel so awkward in class. i was stuck in a nervous situation and kept on babbling on and on. i felt confident on the first day of school, but every little mistake shook me down. i know nothing about this subject, my teacher is slow and inefficient. i can only pray that it’ll get better. in addition to that, some of my classmates are intimidating in a sense that i don’t even understand.
  • why did i sit in the front of the class? to leave a good impression that worked well only for the first day. 
  • ethan’s shoes should have been ready — considering it’s been nine days — but costco hasn’t called me yet, and i’m getting anxious waiting.
  • since i can’t sleep till one or two at night, i wake up at nine feeling tired. yet next week, i am expected to drive to pcc for class and be there eight in the morning. i don’t know how i am going to manage that, but maybe the universe will be kinder to me.
  • so happy i got my check yesterday; i was getting so worried about my credit card bills. i don’t even have to pay the entire thing, just the minimum amount but i know i’ll pay the majority of it to keep my heart at ease. this is the first time i’ve gone crazy + a bunch of textbooks to buy, so i am the very least thankful.
  • i feel irritated when people who do not know the value of money blow of their parent’s money like no tomorrow.

572). i hate you.

i haven’t hated someone this much in so long. i hate people who can’t follow through on their words. don’t you know? actions speak louder than words, and you proved it otherwise. you suck as a human being because you seek to take advantage of others. with all the crap you did, to think you’d learn something from it all would be too much of an expectation.

yesterday, among other orders, a customer of four (ages around their twenties) ordered some corn. our corn comes on a stick in pairs. after eating the first corn, one of the customers called me over and asked me what is the sauce on the corn. while i can clearly see that it is coated in some barbecue-like sauce, i didn’t want to give false information, and told them i can go ask the kitchen/ my manager. it turns out it’s some “special sauce.” the conversation went as said:

ME: unfortunately all i can tell you is that this is a special sauce
GUY (TURNS TO HIS FRIENDS): aw man
GUY (TURNS TO ME): the thing is.. i might be allergic
ME (EYES WIDE): oh crap, are you really?
GUY: naw, i’m just kidding
ME: holy crap you scared me!
EVERYONE ELSE: *laughs*

571). i’m sorry but i really hate people.

my professor spends more time talking about teaching rather than teaching itself.

suki and i have class at the same time

SUKI H: which parking lot are you parking at?
ME: i don’t know, i only know one

  • woke up this morning at six, thought i was crazy and went back to sleep
  • i don’t even know why i wake up so early, i just do
  • woke up at nine and this time i got up
  • checked my etudes portal and phil online has been added
  • thought it’d be an okay class but this professor is harcore
  • found out i have to buy my text asap which is approx $71+ tax
  • i am going to cry, need textbooks for three more classes
  • am i losing hair ..
  • started reading ch 1 for phil and what is this ..
  • called insurance and thankfully got everything cleared 
  • took a shower because i felt gross and sweaty
  • going to starbucks for the green tea lemonade and then school

why have a phone if you don’t fucking pick up.

holy shit, philosophy textbook = $71 for six weeks and it’s an online class

ME: bobo how old are you?
TRAINER: how old do i look?
ME: 40
TRAINER: *smiles disappears and pretends to kick me*
ME: but you act like you’re 5

while driving to work, i heard a flapping sound that matched the speed i was going in my car. it scared me, because i thought something was wrong. my car felt normal, and everything is fine, but there was that annoying flapping sound that left a worried feeling i could not shake off. so i pulled over at the side of the street and went to observe ethan. his wheels were fine (waiting to be changed) and body and butt looks nothing out of the ordinary. so i got in my car and continued to drive to work. still, the sound persists, and i got paranoid to the extent of turning off the radio. 

upon arriving i checked the wheels again, determined to find the source of the noise. i would go insane if i could not. i finally found an advertising sticker stuck to the right front of his wheel. it was what made the ridiculously annoying flapping sound as i sped up or slow down. i ripped it off, cursing under my breath. 

i fucking hate those ads and flyers they put on your windows and windshield. i get so mad. they are so fucking annoying.

570). summer school begins tomorrow.

*spends the remaining day mourning over my summer*

i don’t understand why someone would have a whole conversation through twitter. two people that know each other too well and way too high key about their relationship. why would you broadcast it loud and proud to the extent of everyone else grabbing for the nearest puke bag. i don’t understand why i have to scroll through and read over 30 tweets of pointless conversation. let alone the flirts here and there. it should be between two people, not the two people and the world. i don’t undestand why you can’t text each other as oppose to spamming everyone else. i just don’t understand this concept.

the perks of having old lady memory

  • when something trivial upsets me, sometimes i forget about it for awhile
  • when watching the previews for dramas, i forget so i don’t get anxious and dread the bad things that are going to happen
  • i don’t have to pretend to forget people i don’t like
  • i forget about ordering things online so when it comes in the mail, it’s like christmas came early
  • time flies in terms of what day it is
  • always have something to tell someone because at one particular time, i forgot

my shift didn’t feel too long today which i am so glad for

  • i got to work 10 minutes late because of traffic
  • i swear i hit every red light after i got off the freeway and idiotic drivers would not turn when there are clearly no cars and they can
  • i like my shift lead today, but she wasn’t happy when i arrived late
  • better late than dead from an accident if anything, if you ask me
  • i did apologize and she warned me next time to call ahead of time
  • it was because i fell asleep before my shift and i usually work an hour later
  • i guess i haven’t been at this job for a week, so everything was fresh and wasn’t tedious just yet
  • my newest coworker came in and at first it was quiet but we eventually started talking
  • it was hard to communicate with her the first time, but now that we broke the ice (or at least cracked it) it’s much better and time passes by quicker
  • i like sharing the little laughs and crap crap crap moments
  • when i got off work, i went to the restroom to change
  • someone definitely took one of the biggest shit ever because it smelled so bad that i stayed away for ten minutes
  • my shift lead who went inside to spray the air freshener came out gagging