416). thank you for always being the one that never lets me down.

two days after the fight with my sister

ME: aw, my sister bought me candy from knotts.. guess we’re cool now.
ME: that sly bitch ..jk hahahah !
TIFFANY L: aww your sis bought you candy ;)
TIFFANY L: i love how she can buy your happiness.. LOL



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you had it all for a pretty little while
and some how you made me smile when i was sad
you took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
then you realized you wanted what you had
i guess i should’ve been more like that

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maybe’s

maybe i should have done something differently. maybe i should have made another decision. maybe i should have pushed away those doubts. maybe i should have spoken up. maybe i should have listened to you. maybe i should have taken a step forward. maybe, just maybe .. i should have trusted you. only now do i feel a teeny hint of regret.



i remember the other day ..

FRIEND (PLAYING WITH THE SLEEVE OF HIS SHIRT): touch this.
ME: no..
FRIEND: just touch it!
ME (TOUCHES THE FABRIC):
okay..
FRIEND: what is this made out of?
ME: i don’t —
FRIEND: BOYFRIEND MATERIAL.
ME: -.- 



insecurity will eventually destroy us all.

productive things i did today

  • do the cleaning in my room
  • do the cleaning on my desk
  • do the vacuuming 
  • do the dusting
  • do the organizing closet
  • do the getting haircut 
  • do the helping mother wash dishes
  • do the eating a lot
  • do the unfinished tasks for college



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tell me did you sail across the sun
did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
and that heaven is overrated
tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
one without a permanent scar
and did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

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is it that easy?

i hate how one day we can have so much to say one day to one another, but nothing to say the next. how is it that in less than 24 hours, we suddenly run out of things to talk about? i don’t understand the sequence of events that led to this. i don’t understand why it’s so easy for you to cast me away.



23 more days

i think. or around that number minus weekends + holidays. i honestly thought today was friday. then i realize that it isn’t and i was really disappointed. however, it turned out to be a pretty good day. today, i feel like a small burden has been lifted from my shoulders. it feels great and i am really happy because of that, but i also felt a bit bitter. mostly indifference though. i hope i come to regret nothing in the future. anyways, i woke up in the morning from the ringing of my phone. had a bite of breakfast and went to school. brought snacks to munch on and share with tiffany :) today is the last day of cst testing. the activities for today is basketball, and it was interesting to watch. i’m so proud that i made it through the week without any thoughts of ditching. just kidding. tiffany and i have this no-cussing game. lately, we’ve been swearing more than we’d like. so put a stop to this bad habit, we’ve agreed that every time we utter a curse word, we must donate 25¢ to emmelynn’s charity. she’s collecting money to donate to feed the poor children. it’s all for a good cause, and at the same time will fix our bad habits. however, it’s extremely difficult to remember .. and i am already losing 2-3 points. i’m going to go broke :X we went to class together after senior activities and the same girl that have been staring at us for months, continue to stare at us. when you think about it, it’s pretty creepy but it’s also funny. my classes after lunch was boring. i’m playing this logo game on my ipod and it kills time :)

after the long grueling periods, some friends and i went to tea brick after school to get a drink. because suki wasn’t in the car, we didn’t get into any accidents :) she’s busy today so sadly, she couldn’t come with us. maybe next time. i was surprised to run into vivian. it’s super nice to run into friends randomly. i like her shirt but i forgot to tell her because she was busy working. so after we got our drinks, we ended up playing jenga for the longest time. shirley and i call it “the block thingy” ! later, some other friends who happen to come by joined us and some more after. our small group of three turned into five, then seven :) it was randomly fun and we left around 5:30 to get shirley home on time. i didn’t take a nap today but i brought home boba for my sister too. i remember the first time she went to order boba at quickly’s a few years ago she sad “can i order one cup of boba?” and the guy asked “boba milk tea?” and she said “no, just boba”. and he literally got her a cup of just boba .. that was funny for days :) anyways, i think i am rambling on and on now.



415). i love random texts from someone you haven’t talked to in awhile.

i think i need to start exercising again

i feel so unhealthy. every day, i am consuming so much junk food and unhealthy drinks full of sugar. i’ve worked on eating a healthy, but sometimes it’s so hard when what you are craving is right there and just tempting you. there’s so much yummy food that is not so good for you. the more unhealthy the food is, the more you crave for it. there’s a correlation, i swear. i need a treadmill that will unlock my fridge or kitchen only when i’ve run a mile or something.



wednesday !

  • i like making bullet points
  • no collaboration schedule :(
  • spent like two hours at the new aztec gym for senior activities
  • activities today were tug of war and dodgeball !
  • it was entertaining to watch 
  • super hot outside when we left the gym
  • went to second period which went by so sloOoOOOw ..
  • i hate it when people don’t do their share of work
  • lunch in the heat !
  • emily got asked to prom so cute :)
  • got another group project = not so cute 
  • the classroom was half empty because people took their ap exams
  • chill day in psych when quiz is postponed and we watched a movie instead 
  • i like super funny movies in class 
  • got my strawberry & creme frap at starbucks for happy hour !
  • super duper packed with people
  • went knocking on shirley’s door afterward :)
  • on the phone she told me she wasn’t wearing anything -_-
  • waited ten long minutes for her “get her keys” + pee
  • went on a “spontaneous adventure” and went to bother suki 
  • chats about life and our futures !
  • unexpected naps 



414). i am thankful for all the friends that never left my side.

my beyootiful pamela jue got asked to prom today :) 

my beyootiful pamela jue got asked to prom today :) 





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